I am looking for my motivation. If anyone comes across it then be sure to let me know.
2012 was going to be my year to get organized, spend my time better {my kids sleeping time I mean mostly}, exercise and just be better.
Do you think I am succeeding? Nope. Definitely not yet. Good thing there is another 11.25 months to go.
It is almost midnight and Shun is not home from work yet. I did think he would be late tonight because he took part of the morning off work to come with me for another follow up for Noah`s speech. Although that follow-up update will have to wait for another day because I still have to check with Shun that I was understanding what the lady was saying {and I am pretty sure I was…basically…if we want to put Noah on the waiting list for the speech communication group classes he could be eligible for then they would prefer we changed our home language to Japanese. This is not going to happen. At least not from me}
Sometimes it depresses me that Shun gets home so late although tonight is pretty late even for him {at least lately}. At least tomorrow is the weekend and it is supposed to be a pretty quiet one so that is a bonus. Most nights I don`t really notice he is not home- and the kids and I have our own routine down so while their may be the occasional yelling {ahem!} because Noah is refusing to come to the shower even though I am already undressed and so is Shion which means chasing him around trying to catch him while Shion is trying to climb into the shower…or up the little stool to see into the sink or cursing because I have stepped on more rice before managing to clean it off the floor- yes despite those things we still get everything done and the boys get into bed by 7:30pm at the latest most nights.
Last weekend {15th} marked seven years of us being together {Shun & I} and this May will mark six years of us living together. When I said to Shun on Sunday that it had been seven years he said “That is more than 1/4 of your life”…..hadn`t thought about it like that before!
I had a bunch of goals for this year….remember? Well I am tracking our money again- but no luck reducing our food bill. Yet. I am blogging a LITTLE bit more often than I was in December at least and I have already found extra work hours. Have 15 hours a month from next month although 2 hours of that will only be until April. Still the goal was 10 hours a month and I should be able to keep the new jobs I have picked up for awhile. One lot I received from a friend who is moving further away- 2 x 2 hour conversation classes with a bunch of retirees. The money for this is awesome and it is a 5-10 minute drive from my house- If I had a bike I could go by bike except it is up a big hill. I would walk it but since my in-laws will watch the boys it is best if I go and get back as soon as possible. Other goals {like exercise or lose weight} are definitely not happening at all yet {except for 2 random stints. Oh new year…I swear there are people all over the world who exercise more in the month of January than they do the rest of the year!}
I should be in bed. Also there is about 43 things I could of done tonight instead of watching the last couple episodes of good wife and checking facebook. Probably also shouldn`t of eaten another bowl of fried rice at 10pm…
Oh well, tomorrow is another day and soon it will be a new week! I can be motivated and good then right?
It is midnight now…Shun still not home…guess I will see him in the morning because I don`t think I can wait up much longer! Good thing I didn`t wait for him to eat dinner {haha, I never wait. I usually eat at like 5:30 with the kids!}…
Happy weekend all
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I am just a twenty something Aussie girl living in Chiba, Japan with my Japanese husband trying to make sense of the crazy Japanese world we live in! We welcomed our first son in December 2009 (Noah) and a second son in January 2011, 2 months premature (Shion). I am working hard at raising them to be confident, bilingual, happy kids!
Just wondering, are they implying that they won’t put Shun in the waiting list if the home language isn’t Japanese??
You are a strong lady to look after two active boys mostly by yourself in a foreign land. Really admire tt. I hate it when hubby gets home late for even one night! Good luck in staying motivated! I guess it’s normal to not feel motivated all the time, because we might get burnt out and tired.
Have a good weekend too
Ai @ Sakura Haruka
Oops sorry I meant Noah for the speech therapy part (^_−)−☆
Ai @ Sakura Haruka
They didn`t say they wouldn`t but they made out like we would be wasting our time if we didn`t change our home language to Japanese. Shun speaks to the boys in Japanese mostly {with regular phrases in English- “Are you hungry?” “Let`s change your nappy” “Do you want to go outside” etc} and I speak to them in only English. I understand that if we do this class/therapy it is a group situation and it will be in Japanese but I refuse to speak to the boys in Japanese all of the time.
I think what they were trying to say was if we want the base language to be English for now then we shouldn`t put him in the class/sessions. But they also implied that since we plan to live her permanently that we should be focusing on Japanese and not English.
A friend of mine had her first baby last year and during New Year’s she came to visit us. Her little girl is 7 months old now and my friend asked me what I used to do when I was home all day when my kids were little. Honestly, I couldn’t remember and I was a stay at home mom for 10 years! I didn’t have any goals except to make it through the day and keep everyone on track!! It takes more energy to be a mom than we realize so my best advice is to just pick one of your New Years resolutions and focus on that while doing all the mommy stuff you do. There’s no pressure from anyone to be perfect except you so feel free to give yourself a break. {hugs}
You know what? I don’t think I actually know what Shun does for work…
I hate it when Ben is home late – aka 6pm or later – let alone how late you normally wait! Although today, Saturday, Ben’s been in at work for an experiment since midday and will probably be home after 6pm… Oh the life of a SAHM.
perhaps there is a big motivation convention going on somewhere cause I can’t find mine either. Hub starts two and a half months of late nights and weekends next week. I don’t know how you manage everyday with Shun being so late. Although must say that when hub is late a lot I get into my own routine with the kids and then when he does come home in time to help all hell breaks loose
Cause its not getting done ‘my’ way.
Bugger off. Thats all I have to say about New Years resolutions.
xxx big hugs from Kunimi xxx
I think this is your self-critical voice talking! You don’t give yourself enough credit girl! I think it is amazing that you manage to keep up this blog, do your teaching stuff, the tot school for the kids – WHILE looking after them + cooking + cleaning + grocery shopping! With two boys so young and still so dependent on you for their every need, it is no wonder that you just want to sit and chill on the net while they are sleeping. I’d be exhausted too! But on the other hand I can understand your frustration and not getting the things done that you want to do. I regret the amount of time I spend online too…in my case it’s not lack of motivation..it’s procrastination. With your determination, I’m sure you’ll achieve your goals, just keep working on them every day! It will be easier to get out for a walk more often once spring arrives and it’s not so chilly outside!